I want to work hard and build a good life, not for me but for her

I’ve always felt that the best kind of people in this world are those who know how to comfort others, who know how to make them happy and who know how to express their utmost feelings using actual words. However, I am not one of them at all. When it comes to thanking people; I am in fact the worst of all. I have always preferred a text over a call just so I won’t have to speak because for some reason I run out of words while speaking and at times I can’t even pronounce them. However, I really am thankful to God for giving me this gift of creative writing. As someone who struggles to express gratitude in person, I have always relied on writing to thank people for their love and kindness.
I am thankful to all the people who have contributed even a little in making me who I am today. I don’t just thank them on their respective days. And same is the case with Mother’s Day, I am thankful to my mother every day, and I celebrate her presence every day, but I do feel compelled to express my appreciation for my mother today. She should know that she is a part of what composes me. I’ve loved her since I was in her womb, and I’d love her for the rest of my life, I love her 365 days of the year and will love her even if there were more days in a year. Though I know that mothers are programmed to love their children, I am grateful for the sacrifices my mother has made for me and my siblings. She is a source of all the light and is a force of nature, like the sunshine that warms the skin and the moonlight that blesses the soul.
Raising five rebellious girls in a society that prefers boys is never an easy job. And I know somehow it hurts her heart when people pity her for not having a son, their sighs give birth to a storm inside her. And at times, I really wish I was a boy just so she would live peacefully. However, I don’t think she wants that. She has never loved us any lesser than mothers love their sons. Despite everything, she takes pride in introducing us to the world and bragging about our achievements.
Whenever I write something, she is always curious to know what it’s about, and she nods her head in appreciation when my siblings explain it to her. She always celebrates our achievements as if they were her own. Little things that we don’t even notice about ourselves, concern her. Though she isn’t well educated but she has always encouraged us to study and prosper in life. I cannot imagine a world without my mother. She is the reason I exist, and I want to be a part of her life that relieves her burdens instead of adding to them.
I don’t have many goals in life, I’ve always just dreamt about a simple and happy life. But every day I wake up with just one desire in my heart and that is to give her a life of comfort and happiness. I want to do everything I can to make sure she has all that she needs to be happy. I want to work hard and build a good life, not for me but for her. She deserves to live a carefree life and she deserves to live with contentment knowing that her kids have done well in their lives.
Her love has been the only true warmth I have ever felt, and I am so grateful to have her as my mother. As I reflect on the love and sacrifices my mother has made for me and my siblings, I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Even when she is sick and unable to speak, she worries about us and prays for our health, how can a person be so selfless? She is a pillar of strength and a source of comfort in times of need. Her unwavering love and support have helped shape the person I am today, and I am forever indebted to her. While words cannot fully express my appreciation, I hope that through this piece of writing, I have conveyed even a fraction of my love and gratitude toward her.
Happy Mother’s Day, Mom! Thank you for bringing me into this world and giving me immense love and freedom to be unapologetically myself. You’ve raised me well, you’ve raised us well. All my friends, all my teachers, all my juniors and all the people who know me even a little bit will agree with me when I say that you’ve been successful in your job as a mother. And I’d make sure that I exhibit glimpses of you everywhere I go. I wish a day would come when you’d be actually proud of yourself for giving birth to me. I will make sure I make wise use of this life that you’ve given me after facing a lot of obstacles. Sometimes when you feel unloved, I just want to hug you for the love you give me but I am too shy for that. My nature has never allowed me to make anyone feel loved, but my heart is full of love I hope I’d be brave enough to show you my sincere feelings someday. Till then I’d have to hide behind these words.
A blessed visitor of your womb
‘Enuuu’
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Shafiya Showkat